I'm bored out of my mind...I hate boredom...I hooked onto my lappie...and surprisingly can't find anything interesting to do. Not even Youtube placated my boredom...geez, what's wrong? I don't feel like starting on my lab report, but researching for my MC100 is not turning up well. Is it so hard to find out how what kind of jobs a television production company offer??? ><

Mmm....what am I gonna do now? Go out? No money....work on the lab report? Don't wanna! ><

Maybe I should just sleep....or not. I'm not the napping type. If only I had a piano, then I could at least practice the piece Karmun taught me. Maybe I should just stare into thin air....yeah, feel like doing that...waste more time...=_=;;;

Long week....

It's been a long week...Got sick..coughed like mad and lost my voice too. Saw the doctor yesterday, so now taking meds. 早く元気なりたい！

Rushed for an assignment overnight...as usual...as a result, slept at 5 am. I've been pushing these time limits farther and farther, which isn't a good sign really. Wanted to start researching for another assignment, but gave up after trying to look for journals...I really hate looking for info...

On a happier note, I've been watching anime again, after a long-ish hiatus. Fell back to Wallflower (Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge), watching a new series Spice and Wolf...and trying to catch Shounen Onmyouji which I've been wanting to watch. Hitman Reborn is on my list as well....

Tomorrow is the research colloqium..ああ~行きたくないよ~

PS: I took this...name test thingy? Got it from Regina's blog. I'm pretty impressed, it's quite accurate...about a lot of things. Try it here: http://www.paulsadowski.com/Numbers.asp

What a weekend...

What a weekend I had! First, the MC100 exam...hmm, I suppose I did ok...won't fail la...then after exam, supposed to head off to TS with Mika and Karmun. And when all of us were going down, the elevator got stuck between ground floor and first floor! XD We were all laughing like crazy, and Mika even said that it reminded her about this scene in Final Destination. I think we scared the poor guard who was stuck in there with us..LOL!

So the lift started moving like, 2 minutes later, no biggie...sent Jas to Central, then off to TS! XD Was recapping an interesting conversation to Mika and Karmun, then Mika and I went totally nuts over Wookie's "Oooohhhh.....umma~~~" scene in EHB *lmao*. Karmun stared at us as though we're aliens (maybe we are? XD)

Anyhoo...went to lunch at Summer Cafe (yes, food consists of 80% of my social life). After that, Mika went to pierce her ears...2 holes on the right lobe. ><

Wanted to buy the jacket I had my eyes on, but the shop was closed. >< But I ended up getting a pair of shoes/sneakers...it's greeeeeeeennnn.....and very the bling as Mika put it.

Then Sunday (today) was church of course...Bible study this week....but service seemed quieter for some reason. Maybe it's because some of the students had school holidays? Oh well....and I ended up staring at the bassist and one of the vocalists of the worship team. They looked really alike, so I asked some of my friends. Turned out they're brothers! Well, either way, they're both cute.......should I be saying this?

'Experiment' in college

Haha, ran our 'experiment' today at college. Was surprised to see how all of us can dress so differently. I think a lot of people noticed, and I witnessed first-hand the power of appearances. Hahaha, Lisa noticed Gorgan because of his dressing today. He really did look good today.
ゴルガン君、 もっとあれのような服を着ればいいんじゃない。

And people keep asking if I had a date...-_-;;; Should I be laughing or crying about it? I want my Eeteukie~~ Spazzing like crazy now....having to remain 'sane' for such a long time is taxing on my 'sanity'. Going to watch some EHB and space out. Tomorrow is going to be a full day MC100 marathon. Agh...

A little retrospection....

This has to be one of the most inspiring sermons I have ever heard. I was so moved by the presence of God in His house the tears just wouldn't stop. Thank you Ps. Pat...thanks Ps. Kevin...Leonard who brought me there, Baldwin who drove us there...Thank you God, for bringing me back into Your arms. I can't illustrate how much my life has changed because of You, and I know that this is only the beginning.

Sow with a mission....to ask myself what I really want is one of the hardest questions I can ever ask myself. You see, a normal person can tell they want to be so-and-so, do this, do that in the future, but not me...I don't know what I want...or maybe I do, but I don't want to acknowledge that's what I want. It feels like a sin sometimes...desiring that is like ripping against the canvas I've carefully painted. Everything was a mess, a blotch, an emptiness I cannot identify and a fear I will not allow myself to have. But today...today, hearing him ask us...me...what do I want? What do I want? What do I want?

There are several things...some more obvious...others subtle. The audition...rather than just to pray for success in it...I want to know if I truly have the abilities needed for this field. I want to be in SM Entertainment. Being a top entertainer in Japan, Korea...all over Asia...like them. I want to be there with Mika and Jas. I can't stand being there alone...please let them be with me, please let us go there together. I need direction in life...that which I desire may not be that which I am destined to do...but I believe that if the Lord's will is with me, I will discover the direction.

The next thing is....a bit embarrassing, a bit painful to talk about. I want a particular person, but I think I'm probably dreaming. I mean, crushing over idols? I'm past the age for that...but such thoughts have crossed my mind, and when I thought about what I wanted today, his face flashed across my mind. It was shocking...I can't be serious about this...perhaps this is a result of a little loneliness. I would be lying if I say I don't yearn for another person's warmth and love. Right now, my friends have been wonderful, giving me lots of love...but occasionally I feel the bite of loneliness, fleeting, phantom...no more..