Life post XD

Whee! Long time no update! What to do? Life has been so busy, just keeping up with schoolwork is taking most of my energy. So yeah, been crazy with college, but in the storm of assignments and studies and thesis, some good things have happened as well. Overall, still in one piece, physically and mentally. After the 'intensive' training we had from IO last sem, I think this sem is considerably easier. Hello, I had time to think I'm bored, so it's a definite improvement.

I've been given a job offer at by the college, which honestly, is more appealing to me than a bank job. But of course, salary is not comparable, living costs have to bear myself etc...but it's much more relevant to me than a job in a corporate, financial sector. And it gives me more opportunities to prepare for post-grad. So now, in the process of making one of those major life decisions!

Interest-wise, I've gotten addicted to Nico Nico Douga (because of a certain "NeonStall") which is like...the Youtube of Japan. Mainly, I got into a bunch on singers who sing mainly, but not only, Vocaloid songs, and upload them. I really applaud them, because their singing sound like pros, the mixers and the composers are somewhat geniur-level too. It amazes me...them Japanses ppl. Once again, you see my fascination with all things Japanese.

Speaking of which, a friend of mine got the opportunity to study in Japan and will be leaving soon. I had the chance to meet up with her and hung out together with a bunch of friends, and we were chattering away in Jap until one of our friends got annoyed coz she couldn't understand a word. But I'm glad for her. If I have the chance, I would wanna go to Japan too. Either to work...or maybe study. But it's a dream in the future.

Guess right now, my life isn't so bad. It's pretty enjoyable, and despite the crazy assignments I have, I'm trying to apprecate everything about undergrad life, because it's gonna end soon...

Into a New Decade

The new year has come and gone, and right now, I can't afford to think about much else but college. Once again, I'm attempting to drive myself nuts by taking 5 subjects, one of which is thesis, which, btw, is contributing 80%to my going nuts.

I'm still feeling the effects of the crazy last sem, a little burnt out, not really feeling like going back to college. But, with all good spirits, and great friends, I made a pretty good recovery. Now my mission to hunt for the correct subjects so I can get a good schedule, learn something useful and relevant, get (reasonably) good grades and hopefully, still be sane by the end of 4 months.

So far, thesis is slowly driving me up the wall as I realise what exactly I've set myself up by picking this design. The 2 cores look okay so far, with one experiment assignment in anticipation. And the remaining electives will be by the same lecturer, who, befitting all the rumours I've heard, is as long-winded as someone her age could be. On top of that, sitting in for possibly the toughest subject of the semester (Psychological testing), which I initially wanted to take, but was scared off by the high risk of a C or worse. So technically, 6 subjects. Overachiever syndrome.

But I digress. My Fairy Tail fever is at its pitch point, for reasons I cannot fathom. It's not like it's a new series I'm following, but for some weird, weird, reason, I'm all moe and kyaa over it. It's not a *pretty* anime...trust me, the characters don't look like they could all pass for girls. In fact, the girls are really pretty, some of the guys are really cool, in a non-feminine way (how often do you hear me say that?) and some character designs are downright WEIRD! But still, from the mangaka of Rave, I'm impressed and enamoured by Fairy Tail's endearing and humourous storyline.

Oh, my fav? Unsurprisingly, Natsu and Gray, but seriously, they're the 2 manliest characters which I've liked since, I don't know. But doesn't mean I don't ship them. Natsu and Gray are sooo together! Really, with these two, they're both reversible, which is always cool. I know how people like Natsu with Lucy, but I like Lucy with Loke. Seriously, those two are super cute together. And needless to say, Erza belongs with Gerard. Full stop. So yes, while I should be reading journals for my thesis, I'm rereading the Fairy Tail manga for maybe the 4th time, I lost count.

Exams are nuts

Exams are tough...but having 5 papers, 3 of which are heavyweight subjects, are a little crazy even for me.

I must've been really nuts to go for 5 subjects, but hey, this is the price to pay if I wanna finish up on time. But I just found out that graduation happens only once a year in April, so technically, if I finish fast, I still have to wait for April to graduate. But then, I'll have time to go for my training, and still have spare time over for holidays and whatever else. XD

So for now, I'm just gonna work my ass off, somehow survive finals, then enjoy Christmas holidays.

Busy busy busy!

Which explains why I haven't been updating. I think assignments can kill...

Been kept on the very tips of my toes by 302...thanks to that assignment, I've only had an average of 5 hours of sleep for 3 days. On top of that, had to prepare for 308 assessment. 309 needed planning, but that wasn't a bad as the others. I officially hate 110B. I find it utterly meaningless. Submit a resume and cover letter as assignment? Really a waste of time. They treat us as though we can't write resumes...if we ever wrote crappy ones, it wouldn't be because we don't know how to, but it's because we're too lazy to go and do it properly. The only thing that hasn't killed me yet is 215.

Then on top of the five subjects...there's the issue about thesis. Gotta do a lot more work to prepare for it. And then of course, the new personal project I'm launching is taking up some time to plan too. Ah well, life is best spent being productive I guess.

But really, this week has been back-to-back. Mon was only 3 hours of sleep...then it was lecture, meetings, PAL and more meetings all the way. My day ended well thanks to a certain person though. XD Then the next day was the same...PAL, assessment, dept promo work, meetings, and meetings...then today was again, similar...So much work that my brain doesn't seem to shut down. It's like...every minute I'm thinking about some work. I fall asleep thinking about what needs to be done the next day, and wake up thinking what I need to finish up that day. Brain is like...taxed to the max.

BUT! Today was finally finished with 302 assessment, so all's well that ends well. I think I can finally sleep properly now. I wanna dream of Gackt...or someone. XD

After the Raya

Hooo dear....

I'm feeling the workload. What with having several meetings in a week, on top of a crazy amount of reading needed. But at least I got to spend a good weekend with my family. They came up for the Raya holidays...which translates to spending time out with them, which equals to less time for assignments, but yeah.

Didn't do anything special...but we went to my uncle's place. And there was a PS2 there!!! I was so happy T_T Just spend the whole day glued to the machine...playing ToA and Star Ocean...finally! The feel of having a controller in your hand and the sight of Fayt going in to bash the enemies with those very familiar skills....sure missed the feel of it. I saw Albel-sama too~~ *dies a happy fangirl*

But now it's back to work....with multiple things to do and loads of stuff to read. Hopefully, by the time the year is out, I'm still alive and well lol.

Start of new sem

It's just the starting of the sem, but I can see the work piling ahead already. And I decided to be crazy and took 5 subs on top of it. Don't know whether I'm nuts or what, but there's no choice but to do it! Ganbaru! ><

And Karyn's leg isn't getting better...a bit worried about that too. Poor girl's getting depressed just from being so cooped up...but I can sympthasize....since I hate being cooped up with nothing to do either. On another note, Ai Rene's persuasion has finally paid off...and I got back on LJ.

As an aside, just came off PAL today. Met an absolutely interesting tutee....the dude said studying is pointless proudly. But looking at the way he conducted himself...and the way he talked, it looks like he has an interesting character. Talked to him a bit...wondered if I got through... Oh well, he's not exactly under me, but I'm interested in checking out his development. I hope his tutor can handle him...he's a bit tricky to read. And I walked 2 Law freshies back to Main block today, LOL. It's been a good day.

Off!

Haa....finally I can breathe a sigh of relief and say "It's finally over!"

Yep, finals are finally over...and we're officially going to be year 3 students next sem. But right how I have some very mixed feelings about that last day. It kinda sucks when you're taking an extra paper, especially if your friends finished early. It's like...missing out on a celebration, yeah? To be honest, after I did my last and final paper, most of friends have already gone off to celebrate their merdeka lol, Just a bit, for a very short moment, I felt a little lonely. But it wasn't all bad. At least, I got to watch Transformers and eat dinner with my aunt.

Then the next thing...I just found out that there's another subject that we have to take, albeit it;s offered free. That's throwing everything off balance...coz this means to finish in a year, I'll have to do my year 5-5-3...which is crazy. I'm not saying it's impossible, but seriously, five subjects in a sem? And for 2 sems in a row? On top of that, I have to think about my thesis too! I'm not exactly keen on killing myself, so this calls for replanning. But of course, this means I have to talk to all parties who are sponsoring my education, haih...

Guess I shouldn't worry about it. I think I'm a little down coz I'm missing family very very much right now. Just till Sat, and I'll be truly home free. Going to get some quick fix comfort *runs off to spazz about Jae*

IMU Cheerleading Finals + Money Issues

Went to the IMU Cheerleading Finals on Froday with my cell members. Was pretty exciting to watch. There was some problems with the PA system, so the last three teams performing lost audio at some point, but they did a really good job handling the situation, especially the final team, Phoenix. All the other teams were good too, all in a different sense. Some used more props, others emphasised more on stunts. Had a really good time, considering that I bumped into some old high school friends there. Didn't know they were in IMU...

Aside from that, my week has been filled with thought to say the least. Money is ranking tops on my worry list now...considering that I still have half of my fees to pay...not sure if we can come out with the money by the end of the month. Wondering if I should go out and look for a weekend job, but what difference will it make? I need the time for my studies...I can't afford to slip any more in my grades if I wanna aim for scholarships in the future.

Money...it's not everything in the world, but you can't live without it. That's the reality of it. It's really frustrating that it's one thing I normally don't care much about, but the one thing I really need now. I can't do anything nor control anything regarding my financial issues, and my parents said the same thing. I really can't help much, I know. But it doesn't stop me from worrying.

For now, all I can do is to do my part, the best as I can. In my case, that would mean to study well...to make sure that all the money my parents invested in my education is not wasted. I will do my best to live fully, without faltering, standing strong to support those who have expectations of me.

A Message to Two Friends + Snatch Thief Incident

Too many things have been happening lately...just when I recovered from a period of 'emotional low'...someone else catches it.

Just found out some shocking news today. It was....absolutely unpredictable. It was one of those things that you thought would only happen on TV, but yet, faced with that reality, one can do nothing but to accept that things like that do happen. At times like these, there is nothing that a friend could do to relieve your burden but to be beside you and support you emotionally. We're still too young to do anything...and it is still a matter that should be handled by the family. Even if we have the intention to help, the truth is, we have no such ability...but we can offer you support as friends.

I know you're feeling the pressure and responsibility as the eldest to hold up the family...and I know that you won't let yourself fall. I, too, would say to you...stay strong. But know that you don't have to rely on yourself totally...at moments when you feel like you might fail, know that your friends are always around to offer your strength, to hold you up in this moment of crisis. We are always here to be your pillar...never hesitate to confide in any of us. Most of all, stay strong as a family. Family support is very important in times like these. I know you're not a believer, but know that things happen for a reason. God does not give us a challenge that we cannot overcome. No matter what happens in the future, we will continue to be by you. This event will definitely change your life...and you may find yourself hitting the ground, but the most important thing is to be able stand up again. I'm not being pessismistic, but I just want you to know that...life will go on no matter what happens. So let's face this hurdle together, okay? *big huggies*

And the other one....don't know what happen to you...but seeing you today kinda made me feel very worried and frustrated. I didn't know what to say...so I left you to yourself. I'm....not someone who's very good at comforting people...without saying something that might hurt them. But looking at you today, well, it made me sad that I can't do anything to help you. I really don't know what happened, but I want to say that you can always talk to us. I know you're someone who's afraid of bringing trouble to other people...what with all the issues that we've been facing lately. But seriously....don't try to bottle everything inside. Like you told me...when there is something bothering you, share it with us. However, I'm not going to force you share if you feel that it's private and something that needs to be dealt with personally. But know that you never need to feel 'paiseh' around us okay? Don't worry that you'll 'ma fan' us, okay? If you really need to, talk about it. *more big huggies*

I'll be praying for you two...so ganbatte!

On a side note...today a snatch thief grabbed a girl's belongings when she came out of the bank at KPD. We were just walking when we heard someone cry out, and te next thing we know...two men rushed on motorbikes to try and chase the thief. Not sure if they caught him, but the poor girl was in distress...so warning to all my HELP friends. Be careful yeah...and best to move around with company. God bless.

Another 'interesting' presentation from the Couple's gang...

Birds of a feather flock together...just when I thought that girl-half of the Couple was the only one with a weird presentation, enter her friend...who's always with them. Today, it became clear to me how these two could be good friends.... -_-;;; Let me tell you what's the differences between the two presentations...

Firstly, while the girl picked a weird job, her friend, whom I shall call 'Bai' (Chinese for white, coz she normally wears white...of course, you can attach some other words at the back for different meanings..) Well, 'Bai' has a pretty normal job...a lecturer.

Secondly, while the girl was bombarded with questions, 'Bai' hardly had any. The reason?? Let me then say this is where the similarity starts. The presentation was weird....WEIRD!!!

She came up to the front to present, and the first thing she said was "My name is *beep* and I will be your PSY001 lecturer."

I thought, 'Okay, so she's going to roleplay...'

Then after that, she said, "I give you 5 minutes to ask me questions about my job."

What??? You haven't presented anything, what do you expect us to ask?? All of us were like staring at her dumbfounded...for once, I couldn't think of what to ask. Then 3 people asked la...

"Do you think you're qualified to teach?"

"Why a lecturer?"

"What is your long-term goal?"

Then after that...total silence....I think if I dropped a pen, it'll sound like I dropped a brick. Most of us then thought, 'Ah, maybe she wants to do the Q&A session first, then do her presentation...' because the next thing she said was, "If there are no more questions, I will proceed with the lecture. (pause) That is the end of the roleplaying session. Are there any questions about my presentation?"

Of course don't have la! You haven't presented anything! So we all sat quietly and waited patiently for her to go on....then....

"Thank you."

What? Huh? Huh?? Over already??

That was how all of us were feeling then. I actually really wanted to ask her something but I didn't because I don't really have the authority...and I might make a poor little girl cry, so I kept me mouth shut. I shall rant here!

Granted, you are qualified to teach, but what makes you suitable for the job? What makes you stand out from the rest? There is a difference between being qualified and being suitable.

Are you aware that we are your future employers and not your future students? Do you feel that you have the right temperament to be a lecturer? (Given that I've seen her burst into tears over some silly issue of not being the best)

Given that the objective was to persuade us that you are suitable for this job, do you think the presentation style was appropriate? Do you think you have effectively persuaded us, who are your prospective employers?

I admit that this is very creative, but do you think you have provided us with sufficient information to decide whether to hire you or not? If the information is not sufficient, are you aware that you will not be considered for the job?

Haih...I'm utterly convinced that some people just have low EQ...or no common sense. -_-;;;

On a side note, my own presentation went okay. I think I managed to answer the needs of the presentation, so I'm glad. Finally, I'm totally free from assignments and projects! Now off to meh books...*scuttles off*

Interesting day + Suju-M!?

Wow, had a really interesting day today! First and foremost, thankies Karmun for fetching me to college today! Last tut for 103, but hey, at least it was interesting. Handed up all my assignments, so yeah..now I can finally concentrate on revision. Some highlights of today:

Coffee with Ai Rene at San Franscisco's
Met Ai Rene before MC100 tut...she asked me if I wanted to go and have coffee with her, so I did since I had time to kill. So, Ai Rene and I..and her friend whose name I cannot recall, the 3 of us went to San Frans'. For as long as I've been studying in Block E, that's the first time I stepped into that shop. Ordered the hot choc 'cause I don't drink coffee XD

For almost an hour, Ai Rene and I talked about anime and BL stuff...yeah, lol... We were totally fangirling over seiyuus. Her poor friend....Mei Hui! There, I remembered her name! XD Mei Hui...hopefully she didn't feel too left out lol. But yeah...then Edward came in and we all went back to Block E. And then, I asked Ai Rene the unimaginable.

"Does [someone] not like me? I get the feeling that she's not too pleased with me." We all know who la ha... Anyhoo, I asked her that and she blandly told me yes. LOL! Well, not outright la, but of course anyone can see that things aren't really smooth between me and that person. But yeah...I said it must be because I'm "loud and annoying" *ahemquotesomeoneahem*

Then she said, "Yeah...and probably because you're very outgoing too."

Excuse me? You have a problem with me because I'm outgoing?? That's like, the weirdest reason I've ever heard. But even Ai Rene admits that it's 'cause of a clash of personalities. Yep, you got that right, girl. And so we discussed at length about the person....her different background and all...then I brought up another unimaginable topic...

Proximity...yep...that person's issue with personal (invading, more like) space. I can't quite believe myself....I mean, I actually went and said "If [someone] was being that close to a girl, then it's still okay, but to a guy I think...in M'sia anyway, [someone] should learn to respect other people's personal space." Then yeah, I brought up the whole...shimmying up to a guy thing...mentioned that it's not appropriate, especially when said someone does it to a guy from a totally different cultural background. Again, we all know who la.

So yeah...Ai Rene was like, "I'll talk to her about it." Ah well, as long as it can serve to better people, I can live with the fact that I just tried to advise that person indirectly. ><

The couple: female half's presentation

The Couple...some of you will know who I'm talking about...doesn't matter if you don't. Anyhoo...the girl..well...today is her turn to present in MC100. Gosh, at first I thought she was just different, but now she's plain weird!

"My next career move is to be a professional neutraliser." Translation: Professional assassin.

.........

Uh, excuse me? Are you delusional? You want a future career that involves killing people? And you give us all these crap qualifications about having weapons training and whatnots....are you even telling us one-tenth of a shred of truth? Heck, all of us were like

"Is that job legal?" Of course not!

"What about moral concerns?" Well, you have to be a cold-blooded person to be in the field, duh!

"What's the motivation?" Money all the way. Nicholas even asked her if it was a joke....-_-;;;;

And I thought she was weird before this...now she's plain scary. Our 'angel' couldn't process why someone would study Psych to kill people when she's studying so hard to help others. Well, Manda, there are all sorts of people in the world after all, it's not surprising there's a potential psychopath in our class.

So yeah...other things not as exciting, so I'll leave those out....

Edit: OMG!!!! Suju has a new subgroup??? I'm so behind!! Suju-M debuted in China...performed U (Chinese vers.) live...members are Hankyung, Shiwon, Donghae, Ryeowook, Kyuhyun, Henry and Zhoumi....

I get Henry, and I can accept him (coz he's talented and cute and all) but why another Chinese member??? I haven't even seen this guy anywhere before! Argh!!!! Mika....where are you when I want to spazz/rant??? T_T

Long week....

It's been a long week...Got sick..coughed like mad and lost my voice too. Saw the doctor yesterday, so now taking meds. 早く元気なりたい！

Rushed for an assignment overnight...as usual...as a result, slept at 5 am. I've been pushing these time limits farther and farther, which isn't a good sign really. Wanted to start researching for another assignment, but gave up after trying to look for journals...I really hate looking for info...

On a happier note, I've been watching anime again, after a long-ish hiatus. Fell back to Wallflower (Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge), watching a new series Spice and Wolf...and trying to catch Shounen Onmyouji which I've been wanting to watch. Hitman Reborn is on my list as well....

Tomorrow is the research colloqium..ああ~行きたくないよ~

PS: I took this...name test thingy? Got it from Regina's blog. I'm pretty impressed, it's quite accurate...about a lot of things. Try it here: http://www.paulsadowski.com/Numbers.asp

What a weekend...

What a weekend I had! First, the MC100 exam...hmm, I suppose I did ok...won't fail la...then after exam, supposed to head off to TS with Mika and Karmun. And when all of us were going down, the elevator got stuck between ground floor and first floor! XD We were all laughing like crazy, and Mika even said that it reminded her about this scene in Final Destination. I think we scared the poor guard who was stuck in there with us..LOL!

So the lift started moving like, 2 minutes later, no biggie...sent Jas to Central, then off to TS! XD Was recapping an interesting conversation to Mika and Karmun, then Mika and I went totally nuts over Wookie's "Oooohhhh.....umma~~~" scene in EHB *lmao*. Karmun stared at us as though we're aliens (maybe we are? XD)

Anyhoo...went to lunch at Summer Cafe (yes, food consists of 80% of my social life). After that, Mika went to pierce her ears...2 holes on the right lobe. ><

Wanted to buy the jacket I had my eyes on, but the shop was closed. >< But I ended up getting a pair of shoes/sneakers...it's greeeeeeeennnn.....and very the bling as Mika put it.

Then Sunday (today) was church of course...Bible study this week....but service seemed quieter for some reason. Maybe it's because some of the students had school holidays? Oh well....and I ended up staring at the bassist and one of the vocalists of the worship team. They looked really alike, so I asked some of my friends. Turned out they're brothers! Well, either way, they're both cute.......should I be saying this?

'Experiment' in college

Haha, ran our 'experiment' today at college. Was surprised to see how all of us can dress so differently. I think a lot of people noticed, and I witnessed first-hand the power of appearances. Hahaha, Lisa noticed Gorgan because of his dressing today. He really did look good today.
ゴルガン君、 もっとあれのような服を着ればいいんじゃない。

And people keep asking if I had a date...-_-;;; Should I be laughing or crying about it? I want my Eeteukie~~ Spazzing like crazy now....having to remain 'sane' for such a long time is taxing on my 'sanity'. Going to watch some EHB and space out. Tomorrow is going to be a full day MC100 marathon. Agh...